a series of events

2006-10-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

http://vzech.blogspot.com
YA LA, i moved. this blog name sounds almost retarded. change your links alright (:

2006-10-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

hello, hello. i see everyone's asking about prom and all. haha. okay, so let me get it over and done with, im not going. well you see, you spend 75 whooping bucks just for the food at M hotel. thats a tad too ex? THEN, you still gotta get your pretty gowns plus makeup plus hair whatever rubbish. it will add up to more than 200 bucks. okay, so its not that actually that expensive la, but go there for some boring programme and just take photos and more, then decide prom queen? neh, im passing it alright. flat. not, going at all. :D okay, the above mentioned is not propaganda, just my opinion, so, it should not actually decide your choice whether to actually go prom or whatsoever. (: ignore me alright.

anw, dearest sec 4s, STUDY YOUR ASSES OFF! yes. :D jiayou la, its only less than a month away to the end of it! :D then it would be sweet party part party PARTY! haha. its almost funny how pr people, us, came up with a stupidly long list of things that we want to do, and the invitation list of those to come for party. haha. me and fer's bday party LA. D: please dont forget it haha. its the FOURTEEN OF NOVEMBER 14 nov! okay? haha. kidding la. haha, on the day itself, i dont really want anything from you guys but GOOD LUCK FOR AMATH. yes, i really need it. haha. i need it. no presents, who cares! i need moral support. ha, amath is my milestone! yes. so yes. you know what to do. haha.

PRESS ON guys. keep praying, God bless you guys. it will be over in no time. :D
and jrs, dont even think of laughing at our plight. sooner or later, it will be your turn. time flies, watch out.

2006-10-10T07:42:00.000-07:00

im seriously on the verge of crying.

im really drained, bushed, tired. i can hardly open my eyes, hardly move my arms now. i just practised my piano, and i almost died. no dynamics, wrong articulations, everything's WRONG. even the notes. i tried so hard crashing on it, no sound came out. my finger bled. it's hard and painful to even try to accept the fact that i cant get the notes right and all. its frustrating. very. \

2006-10-07T11:18:00.000-07:00

INSOMNIA STRIKES AGAIN!

im still awake, at 212am. :( partly is that i cant sleep, another is that im feeling pretty guilty for not studying enough in the day. aiya.

PSI has reached its peak of 150! holy! im coughing up smoke. everytime i look out of the window, HAZE. yes, its irritating. and i can only but stay indoors. i hate i hate i hate forest fires. PLEASE STOP BURNING UP THE TREES. according to my contextual knowledge, its better to CUT down trees, NOT BURN them. its better that way because FIRST it doesnt cause much pollution, SECOND, you still retain some nutrients in the soil. and ever heard of afforestation and reforestation? dont leave the freaking land barren after you use it, replant it!

ah, i see i've become very academic. that {points up} sounds geography-freakish. no, but still that was BAD GEOGRAPHY SKILLS. hahahahaha.

OFF to study the rivers and coasts and whatever trees.

2006-10-06T04:42:00.000-07:00

IM BUSHED!

i reached home like so late, cos i was froggay's house practising for her mep. haha. i was fun :D DUETS. and the macdonalds controversy. okay, so i was speaking english, so was the cashier. BUT we couldnt understand each other, so it was like tons of HUH, and more HUH. haha. funny funny.

oh yea, i was so tired i fell asleep on bus 12 while going home. initially i planned to alight at tanah merah to take mrt home so faster. ho, who knew, in the end, i sat all the way back to pasir ris interchange. yes, i overslept.

aiya, i dont feel like going out at all. i think im going out later at an unearthly hour to pasir ris park to meet my cousins/relatives for mooncake fest. :D haha, not very excited, im too tired :( only thing im looking forward to, WAX ON HANDS :D

2006-10-04T02:10:00.000-07:00

give me a dummy which is a life-size of me, please. i will show you how to vent your anger. i will bite off its ugly fugly head, and shred its body into a million pieces, eat up its stuffings and dump it at kallang river. AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ive never been this angry at myself ever. CHEM CHEM CHEM. to love you or to hate you?! you're always doing this to me, torment me with my lousy marks at MAJOR exams. first was the midyears, then now, prelims. other terms you joyfully come in a big present, an A1. now you bring me crap. ): ): ): im like super uber disappointed now, but nothing can be done unfortunately. all i can, is to pray hard that they would moderate the marks. they had better. ferena was like telling me that she overheard mrs liew saying, "im disappointed with my 4/4 A1 students like _____,_______,______, AUDREY." hoho, the bomb just dropped. wa, makes me feel like shit. that horrible feeling, that inferior feeling, thinking how intimidating chem is, i felt like dying. okay, so maybe i didnt study hard enough? but i thought i did. it was paper two that brought it all down. so now, i dont know what to do at all. still aiming for dear A1? i doubt so.
BUT actually at first i really felt like giving up, until i just read this article online.

THE FACE OF DEFEAT by kristie ansley
I started a new job this past December. It has been the most challenging endeavor I have ever undertaken and I have often times wondered to myself, “Why on earth did they hire me for this position? I don’t have a clue what I’m doing and I’m just not good at this!”

You see the problem is that my brain is wired for topics like psychology and the history of humanity. My job, however, has to do with lab instrumentation and the software that runs it. I work in tech support so I am on the phone all day trying to convince people that I somewhat know what they’re talking about. To add to it, many of them have accents and I can’t understand what words they are saying, never mind the point they are trying to make! It is like the blind leading the blind!

I come home every night and try to block out of my mind the idea that I have to go to work tomorrow. I dread every phone call I receive because it is just one more opportunity for me to feel stupid in front of my co-workers who are good at this kind of stuff and don’t understand why they have to tell me three times how to do something that to them is so simple. Not only that but there are six of us in tech support and we all sit in cubicles so everyone hears every word that is said to customers. If I tell someone to do something the wrong way, everyone hears and knows further that I don’t know what I’m doing. About once a week I am convinced they are going to fire me and so I stress out all day and misconstrue what people say to me as a sign that the ax is coming.

I tell you this because I have never been as frequently defeated as I have been over the past few months. It is a high stress, high-pressure environment and everything I do bears consequences. I have always thought myself to be very detail oriented, but the amount of crucial mistakes I have made since I started this job have convinced me otherwise.

And so, today, I decided to try to work even harder. Monday is always a nice, fresh start. I decided I would do my best to not make a single mistake today. I would double and triple check everything in order to show them that I am a good worker and that I can be trusted with responsibility. And wouldn’t you know that within the first hour of my new start, I was confronted with three mistakes I had made last week and needed to fix! It is like I just can’t win. I was tired, grouchy, and defeated by 10am this morning. I felt like quitting and going home to bed.

Fortunately for me, and for my finances, I stayed and stuck it out. But as I sat there, once again feeling completely defeated, I thought to myself, “What a good lesson this is! It is good for a person who has not failed at much and who usually receives a fair amount of praise, to realize who she truly is. It is good for me to be humbled. Not only that, but for me to have my face rubbed in the dirt.”

I think for any of us to truly know humility, we must experience defeat. Extreme defeat in which we realize that, contrary to popular opinion, we are not in control and that God can and will have His way with us. I did not want this job but I felt like I was supposed to take it. I am not even to the point where I can be content in it, but I am thankful to God for providing for my physical and spiritual needs both at the same time.

I think as an American, I am convinced that I am within the will of God if I am happy and prosperous, but I have to tell you, that I have never felt so sheltered and protected by God as I have through this experience. Every time I suffer humiliation, I crawl back under His arm and feel the comfort of knowing that I am still His child and that He loves me just as much today as He did yesterday. All the more so, I have never had such a real perspective of myself as I do because of this. So many of my successes in life have been attributed to my faith in God but have ultimately come from hard work and perseverance. And now, my divine Creator has shown me that hard work and perseverance don’t get me anywhere. I have tried both in this position and have continually failed. The only thing that remains, the only thing that gets me through the day and keeps me from being fired, is that God has ordained for me to be in this position, at this company for a reason. I have no choice but to obey and trust that He is completing a work in me.

And so, tomorrow, I will again attempt a fresh start. Only this time, my fresh start will begin with calling on the promises of God, resting in the peace of His will, and thanking Him for another day to learn about who He is and who I am not.

and truly, i found my resolution :D but still ANGRY la. pray hard that i can take chem in jc.

2006-10-03T09:37:00.000-07:00

im here.

so, the papers that we received back today were disastrous. anyway, those subjects were not even taken into consideration for my L1R5, so nevermind la. physics, SS, mother tongue. definitely and NEVER in my L1R5. trust me, it will never ever happen. haha. oh yes, a miracle did happen today. i passed my chinese! 50 on the dot. im like super fortunate. Praise the Lord! :D 36+9+55=100/200. honestly i wasnt expecting to pass.

its tmr (rather today? because its 12+am now.) im worried about. the papers tmr are the deciding factors for my darling L1R5. chem A1, emath A1, geog A1? FAT HOPE. hahaha. but hopefully i can get at least an A2 for geog. i need 64/100. or 70/100. which is rather far away and highly impossible. emath, not sure if i did well. but if its like always, i will do rather badly thanks to careless mistakes. chem, is must moderate then i can ever hope for an A1. i think im going to kiss my twelve points away.

im cringing my face. S:( hahaha. new and original facial expression. :D

2006-10-02T06:19:00.000-07:00

HELLO.

im pretty frustrated. it seems like only tkgs has not received back any prelim papers, well excluding english. how long do we need to wait? still, english was bad tad. hurhur, never expected to do so badly for my english, thanks to summary! ): to add on, its always like miss this mark then it goes to the next grade. I NEED MODERATION. oh, but of course they wouldnt moderate.

okay, so now i still need my chem, emath and geog marks, to count my L1R5. thinking of my L1R5, tempts, i said TEMPTS, hahahaha, me to actually swallow a big fat fishball and block my windpipe. uh, guess how bad it is. dead X(

so there was the tj talk today. hahaha, apparently they claim to have more than 100combis. thats impossible. :/ if i ever had a choice, i would take MEP, geog, chem, math. i doubt they would ever have such a weird combi. ah dont care, so long as they give me my MEP and chem, im happy. but, i dont even think they would give me my chem!

aiya, OFF.

2006-09-29T12:38:00.000-07:00

the insomnia bug has bitten. its 3.25am now. beat it. cant sleep. this sucks big time.

im off researching for dido and aeneas notes now. and maybe i'll do chem later. :D

2006-09-29T10:54:00.000-07:00

:D im happy that that stupid mep thing is OVER. endless nights of typing and notating. this three days i only slept 10 hours. 10 out of 72 hours. but still, im on my movie marathon. haha. so i watched john tucker must die. i must say i was very disappointed. i thought it was going to be great, and funny. neh, not very funny. haha, the only funny part was the estrogen(however you spell it) thing, then john was like "ow, my nipples hurt!" yea, the others was pretty okay. but the movie's still not bad la, haha.

i just watched just my luck on my com. it was hilarious! :D and it was good. plus point: MCFLY! :D the cutest band with good hyping music. where's harry! danny was super cute, esp that part when the toilet roll was thrown at him, and when dougie's string broke and hit his eye. :D

watching bring it on now. why? because i cant sleep, seems like im used to sleeping at three in the morning. or maybe im going to study some subj or finish up some homework.

im off.

2006-09-26T11:58:00.000-07:00

hoho, its 2.49am right now. yes, apparently im suffering from insomnia and i dont feel tired at all. not at all. haha. i just finished my mep composition! but not the writeup la. did you know that stupid sibelius cheated my feelings?! they only had the version 4 available, and true enough and being dumb enough i went to download it. i actually finished my compo at about 230 but it couldnt print and it just kept saying "this feature is not available in the demo pack!" needless to say, i fumed. haha. guess what i did? photoshop is my best friend. :D

2006-09-26T09:51:00.000-07:00

sibelius is a fag! it cannot save! ): so i think i gotta stay up and finish up that stupid thing. X(

2006-09-24T07:45:00.000-07:00

today, i present to you, a new species of aliens/animals (i do prefer to refer it to as ALIENS, holy crap.) a new species never discovered by any other human being. this queer species, is none other than a Llanial.

WHAT ON EARTH IS A LLANIAL?!!!
it is a cross-breed between a (fugly) Llama and a Snail. such a weird combination, dont you agree? it gets even weirder, this specie takes on the physical appearance of the Llama, and the crawling speed of a snail. how awful is that.

THE LLANIAL
the llanial is not good on the ice, or rather, very insecure. it dares not skate on the ice, and avoids going back to the ice. other words, the llanial HATES the ice.

the llanial is conscious of its own appearance. but it likes its awful appearance. the llanial likes to refer itself to KUZCO. who is KUZCO! have you heard of the emperor's new groove? there you go, KUZCO. why KUZCO? because KUZCO is an emperor, and the llanial LOVES to refer to itself as the superior species, however dissed strongly by other loved species.

the llanial, has a very complex mind (not). it oftens think too deeply about a thing so direct and straightforward. as a result, the llanial is usually indecisive. poor llanial.

the llanial, has an amazingly huge appetite. it eats up everything infront of it within a few gobbles. it does have the intention of eating up all human beings, please be fearful of it

POOR LLANIAL IN DENIAL
the llanial, thinks it is a domestic animal. unfortunately, only dogs, cats, hamsters, terrapines, rabbit, fish, birds and other small animals fall under domestic animals. as said, the llanial takes up the physical appearance of the llama, thus it is too HUGE to be domesticated.

I LOVE LLANIAL
however, there is only one, yes ONE, llanial on earth, that is ng yuxuan. :D despite her llanial activites and character traits, i still love her to bits and pieces. to my one and only llanial, i SALUTE YOU, for bringing llanial misery/joy into my life. I LOVE YOU!

A/N: THE ABOVE ALL IS EDITORIAL AND MADE-UP. :D THANKYOU.

2006-09-23T06:30:00.000-07:00

Hello, hello one and all. :D FREED FROM PRELIMS!

hurhur, yesterday was physics practical, the most boring practical and most boring paper on earth. ): it was pretty bad, to such an extent it was kinda weird. :/ so after physics practical, i met clsg and went to jurong, yes JURONG, to ice-skate. :D it was fun! haha, actually at first, me and xuan were pretty freaked out by the whooping amount of people ice-skating there. haha. alot, can? haha, so it was quite scary la, took us 10min to actually finally get into the rink. haha. man, my first time ice-skating! call me a mountain tortoise. haha. so ya man, thanks to the rollerblading skills i have, i managed to ice-skate, though it was pretty scary. managed get hold of it after a while. haha, most of the time, i was with my darling co-snail skater named ng yuxuan kuzco whom i do not really love, but loves me alot, haha, and suddenly cos me and clare was going a little faster, she fell, and pulled me down, and i pulled clare down, did i? haha. pretty funny. poor kuzco was freaked out! hahahahahaha. okay. anw, co-snail, i love you la. haha. somehow you gave me a sense of security with the super-snail speed. :D I LOVE YOU! haha. CSS, co-snail-skater. haha. nice. ng yuxuan kuzco, CSS. :D did i mention my CSS kept eating just to avoid going back to the rink.

we took neoprints after that. i cant believe i just did that. X( i do hate neoprints. its only fun taking them. haha. come out, not nice photos. haha. i hate neoprints. i hate neoprints. i hate neoprints. okay, im just being myself. i realised something about myself. i do hate flowery stuff. i kinda dislike cute stuff. and ferena thinks im not a girl! my dad treats me like a boy who goes fishing with him and my brother every other day. damn that sucks. haha. i AM a girl, who just doesnt like cute stuff. hahahaha. neh, im a girl la. not a girly girl girl. haha. thats what i realised about myself on thursday. pretty ironic. maybe im not girly on the outside, but girly on the inside. pretty deep, huh. im confused.

2006-09-23T06:25:00.000-07:00

A Devotion

The Divine Rule Of Life

“Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect.” Matthew 5:48

Our Lord's exhortation in these verses is to be generous in our behaviour to all men. In the spiritual life beware of walking according to natural affinities. Everyone has natural affinities; some people we like and others we do not like. We must never let those likes and dislikes rule in our Christian life. "If we walk in the light as God is in the light," God will give us communion with people for whom we have no natural affinity.

The Example Our Lord gives us is not that of a good man, or even of a good Christian, but of God Himself. "Be ye therefore perfect even as your Father in heaven is perfect," show to the other man what God has shown to you; and God will give us ample opportunities in actual life to prove whether we are perfect as our Father in heaven is perfect. To be a disciple means that we deliberately identify ourselves with God's interests in other people. "That ye love one another; as I have loved you . . ."

The expression of Christian character is not good doing, but God-likeness. If the Spirit of God has transformed you within, you will exhibit Divine characteristics in your life, not good human characteristics. God's life in us expresses itself as God's life, not as human life trying to be godly. The secret of a Christian is that the supernatural is made natural in him by the grace of God, and the experience of this works out in the practical details of life, not in times of communion with God. When we come in contact with things that create a buzz, we find to our amazement that we have power to keep wonderfully poised in the centre of it all.

What Jesus Did

Overstated Commitment - John 13:36-38

Simon Peter asked Jesus, "Lord, where are you going?" Jesus answered, "Where I am going you cannot follow now. But you will follow later." Peter asked, "Lord, why can't I follow you now? I am ready to die for you!" Jesus answered, "Will you really give your life for me? I tell you the truth. Before the rooster crows, you will say three times that you don't know me."

Key Thought

Most of us have done it. We've overstated (or at least over-estimated) our commitment, abilities, or strength. Our intentions, at the time, were probably good. We just didn't realize Satan's power to combine circumstance, fear, doubt, disillusionment... in a concoction brewed just right to bring us to our knees. Peter had a tendency to overstate everything in his early years as a disciple. However, once Peter suffered through his personal embarrassments and failures, Jesus had a leader fully prepared to lead powerfully while also walking humbly. Let's not let our failures keep us from following Christ and being used for his glory. In addition, let's not overstate our ability to handle temptations, trials, difficulties, challenges, or problems. God's strength is made perfect when we realize our weakness and vulnerability; then rely on his strength to sustain us!

Today's Prayer

Father, please forgive for the times I've failed after I overestimated my ability to handle a problem. I know that I cannot face the challenges of life and faith without your power and presence. Strengthen me for the days ahead so that I can be a blessing to others and honor you with faithfulness in my life. In Jesus' name. Amen.

Today's Verses in Context

"I am not talking about all of you. I know the people I have chosen. But what the Scripture said must happen: 'The man that shared my food has turned against me.' I am telling you this now before it happens. Then when it happens you will believe that I AM. I tell you the truth. The person that accepts anyone I send also accepts me. And the person that accepts me also accepts the One who sent me." After Jesus said these things, he felt very troubled. Jesus said openly, "I tell you the truth. One of you will be against me." Jesus' followers all looked at each other. They did not understand who the person was that Jesus was talking about. One of the followers was next to Jesus and was leaning close to him. This was the follower that Jesus loved. Simon Peter made signs to this follower to ask Jesus who the person was that he was talking about. That follower leaned closer to Jesus and asked, "Lord, who is it that will be against you?" Jesus answered, "I will dip this bread into the dish. The man I give it to is the man that will turn against me." So Jesus took a piece of bread. He dipped it and gave it to Judas Iscariot, the son of Simon. When Judas took the bread, Satan (the devil) entered him. Jesus said to Judas. "The thing that you will do--do it quickly!" None of the men at the table understood why Jesus said this to Judas. Judas was the one that kept the money box {for the group}. So some of the followers thought that Jesus meant for Judas to go and buy some things they needed for the feast. Or they thought that Jesus wanted Judas to go give something to the poor people. Judas accepted the bread Jesus gave him. Then Judas went out. It was night. When Judas was gone, Jesus said, "Now the Son of Man receives his glory. And God receives glory through the Son of Man. If God receives glory through him, then God will give glory to the Son through himself. God will give him glory quickly." Jesus said, "My children, I will be with you only a short time more. You will lookfor me. And what I told the Jewish leaders, I tell you now: Where I am going you cannot come. "I give you a new command: Love each other. You must love each other like I loved you. All people will know that you are my followers if you love each other." Simon Peter asked Jesus, "Lord, where are you going?" Jesus answered, "Where I am going you cannot follow now. But you will follow later." Peter asked, "Lord, why can't I follow you now? I am ready to die for you!" Jesus answered, "Will you really give your life for me? I tell you the truth. Before the rooster crows, you will say three times that you don't know me."

— John 13:18-38

extracted from HERE. i enjoyed reading it alot, so i decided to post it here. hope you guys enjoy it as much as i did. :D

2006-09-20T06:27:00.000-07:00

IM SICK OF STUDYING ):< its annoying me big fat time.

HO, chem prac was a hell lot of danger. i got burnt by the spurting liquid with pale yellow precipitate. disgusting, smelly, painful. haha. lock-in after the practical was pretty stupid, haha, imagine being locked up inside a teenie-weenie studio for two hours? hahahaa. so we started playing stupid games. first was the 1,2,3,4,5etc. game. my, sooming you are such a rough girl! my poor hand HAHA. then we started playing murderer. then the murderer+detective+doctor narration game. haha. me and siying killed EVERYONE. hahahah. actually in every game, the murderers won. studied chem only a little. so later we broke up, shilin, sooming, mingfang and i started playing bridge. my partner was always sooming, who bids big, who doesnt have the winning cards of each set. HAHA, sooming i love you. then came siying. another one who didnt understand much of the game. sooming + siying = sooying + siming = 'marvellous pair'. haha.

and after i reached home today, i slept all the way through. ah. so my dad woke me up to eat dinner, i was like super irritated and frustated. i broke my bowl. HAHA. i lightly banged the bowl in the basin, the whole thing broke in my hands. thats why im called a damaging destruction to all objects around me. ya la, im violent, SO? haha. cant be bothered anyway. so im off to study chem. which sucks bady. pretty much even though chem is fun. yuck

2006-09-19T02:30:00.000-07:00

13 year old kids are over-rated.

i just visited this forum online (click if you want, maybe not accessible), and there's like this thread that read, "How do i slit wrists? just wondering". i dont know, but i just found this really annoying, disgusting, and infuriating. hello? they're THIRTEEN years old. this is just so ridiculous. okay, im going to use the word PSUEDO again. they think that its like so cool to cut their wrists, but like that's the stupidest thing that someone would actually do?! its so NOT COOL. do they even know what life is exactly about? why God gave all of us life on Earth? we all have a Purpose and Reason to be existing on Earth. cut? thats self-manipulation.

let me add on a point, is that they all think that they are indeed really mature and smart and brainy, but sorry, not even a single bit. they're thirteen, and they're thinking of suicide or whatever. stupid? definitely. oh yes, i've seen like tons of thirteen year olds, at plaza sing toilet, trying to put on thick make-up and eye-liner, that make them look like whores and baby prostitutes. its disgusting. even a sixteen year old person like me, do not put on heavy make-up. if its for attention sake, its not attention that you're oh-so-mature, but actually oh-so-stupid. YES.

haha. okay. i dont actually know why i got so agitated by this, but i hate emo kids! think they're cool?! DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT! oh wells, the Earth, is, revolving.

2006-09-18T09:21:00.000-07:00

Oh my, looking at my previous post, I realised how horrifying is my command of English. D: this is bad. grammar was totally off the hook!

2006-09-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

Hello, hello. :D i realised that blogging has suddenly became a habit again. haha. and i do feel happy blogging. old feeling rekindled haha. man, i didnt study much today. cant believe i just watched mean girls for like the third time, but haha, i still find it fantastic! :D its like my favorite chick flick. i love chick flicks. (: call me a psuedo byotch. whatever. anyway, i came up with this list. :D

STUFF I WANT TO DO AFTER PRELIMS/O LEVELS
1. ice-skate. :D or rollerblading
2. watch 'john tucker must die'
3. shop
4. take photos!
5. disney channel
6. horror movie marathon
7. chalet with my dearest people!
8. play PS TWO, my LOVE
9. bowl? HAHA
10. go insane. :D

there you go. (: one is fulfilled; im going iceskating on friday! okay, im not going to digress further and get too hyped up for post-prelim activities cos i still have physics, emath, chem, chem prac and physics prac. oh wells. ): bye

2006-09-17T07:32:00.000-07:00

friends, pls visit this website
www.lightamillioncandles.com
and light up a candle for these abused children. :D

2006-09-17T04:56:00.000-07:00

there you go. my blog, has a new look. :D

im rather frustrated now, cos the weekends has made me slackened again. so apparently, now i cant really get back into the momentum of studying. crap.

2006-09-15T08:14:00.000-07:00

hohum. SO, a whole damned week has finally passed. throughout that five days, i slept at 1 and woke up at 6. until today, i feel the fatigue. haha. i feel like i cannot even open my eyes anymore. so its BAD ): hur. after tonight its back to hardcore studying. got to ace all that paper 1s, to pull up all the paper 2 marks that i would probably get a failing grade. overall, geog was bad, amath was bad, chem was bad, yadayada. everything was bad. of course, you can say that im a pessimistic person, but yea man, i thought it was managable, but tough. haha. okay so enough of my stupid rants. oh and one more thing. chinese was terrible. HAHA i so did not understand the passage! because its chinese! haha. talk about my mediocre command of chinese friend.

oh yea, so we ARE going japan? yes. so happily i said yay. till hongyu told me that fiesta is on the 16th. hahahahaha. can you imagine?! the trip's like from the 8th to the 15th of december, and fiesta is on 15th or 16th? hoho. i wonder what will happen. neither is it very nice to miss practice for one whole week which is just before the concert? yea. big problem. another thing is that on the 9th, its weili's wedding and limin's 'engagement'. so there you go, missing two headbanging family events ): ): ): how unfortunate. unless i dont go japan, which is uh-you-know-impossible-because-i-want-to-go?

argh, WHO CARES.

2006-09-09T09:42:00.000-07:00

): im feeling pretty lost and empty now. ugh, just feel like everything's about to crumble on me right now. its like, ive not studied a single crap or whatsoever. i really think im going to flung my prelims, like L1R5 = 30. can you imagine that. that also means that i cannot choose what subj i want to take in jc. so in other words, this prelim is like super uber shittly important to me. i cannot remember anything, for sake.

i tell you, i really have done NOTHING. ugh. ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

2006-09-08T23:07:00.000-07:00

i am an

2006-09-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

THE PRODIGY :D i really love. the music might be pretty head-banging, but MAN it gets me hyped up for studying! you guys are spitfire :D

what i can do now. STUDY / STUDY / STUDY.
its a horror. i cant wait till prelims' over. i WILL party.

2006-09-04T11:12:00.000-07:00

JUST i was surfing on the net, and i saw stevie's picture. its actually kinda hard to actually believe that he's dead. )+ i mean, he was such a person with such extreme vigor and live, its hard. actually, his passing doesnt really mean a thing to me, because i hardly watch his shows. but i DO remember him as this super enthu croc hunter, pretty amazing as well. actually i was pretty disgusted with him, like how he carried his then month-old baby under his armpit, while swinging a fat chunk of meat towards the croc. what could have happened if he threw the wrong piece of flesh! haha, but i do admire him, for all the care he showered on all the animals and all. today, we all salute Mr Crocodile Hunter, Steve Irwin. (:

fyi: he was killed not by any crocodile or snake, but a stingray. how ironic.

2006-09-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

hur. whats with turtles today? seems that even my brother's laptop is experiencing the same weird thing. HAHA. maybe everyone's commerating steve irwin's passing? oh yes, he got killed in a marine accident, got stung by a stingray. he probably stepped on the stingray. if not it wouldnt have stung him. oh wells. how unfortunate.

2006-09-03T10:55:00.000-07:00

CHEER and SCREAM my friends, because audrey khoo is finally updating ever since unknown hiatus to the blog haha.

SO, thursday was teacher's day. i would say, the programme was pretty crapped up. to such an extent that i really want to say that it really SUCKS. oh wells. aces was silly, but kinda fun though haha. so i went back to mbs with sijia. managed to find yang meh and miss siow only, seems like the whole teacher community has changed rather drastically, because i didnt find any teachers that taught me. aiy, either they got re-posted, further their studies, retire, get sacked, or whatsoever. how unfortunate. boo. so yes. i got to see my 6JAZZ friends for like maybe the last time. kinda nostalgic uh? yea. ITS THE LAST TIME MY FRIENDS! so if YOU jazzers happen to read my blog, i would like to say, I LOVE YOU GUYS AND YOU GUYS REALLY REALLY REALLY ROCKED MY PRIMARY SCHOOL LIFE! (: all the best guys. go TJ and find me. haha. XD

oh yes. i feel happy and therapeutic-ed (spare my english. haha its 2am and i dont know what am i talking. so spare me. :D). service was awesome, and i bought THREE cds! first its kiss of heaven by darlene zschech (do you have any idea how powerful and rocking are her songs of worship? THEY so ROCK that i repeated the cd TWICE. haha!) and miracles by paul cardall (nice and calming. its new age music. HEY dont laugh at me. haha. its really nice. (: its amazing, and spiritually enhancing [!] in some way. so ya. i love it. :D and i played it twice as well!) and this cd comprising of saxophone and piano. it was actually what my mum chose, so ya. i didnt listen to it. dont care, dont bother. haha. i dont really like that kind of saxophone playing

so yay. dont call me a boring person just because i repeat my cds. HAHA. oh let me end by saying, ive been productive in my geography today. GO GEOG! alrights. goodnight. God bless you guys (: enjoy your holidays! even though i know you wouldnt be. HAHA BYEBYE.

FYI: ive changed my email to i.mashed@hotmail.com
SO STOP ASKING ME WHO AM I! haha. (:

goodbye. im on studying spree, so on blog hiatus. okay. that sounded weird. BYELA

2006-08-16T04:49:00.000-07:00

why congratulations to myself. my piano piece doesnt make sense at all! ): ): ): and so now im writing a whole NEW one. ack.

once again, i detest composing.

2006-08-14T10:02:00.000-07:00

i feel like shooting myself. cant take it anymore. i cannot study anymore! 0 mB left in my brain. i feel so miserable. cant wait for os to be over. oh what sweet misery. ):

2006-08-11T05:13:00.000-07:00

I DETEST THAT STUPID IDIOT FREAK COUCHING ON THE SOFA NOW.

such a fat ass la. from this MOMENT onwards im DECLARING WAR. hello, you are like twentytwo years old and here you are being CHILDISH like ME, and FIGHT over that stupid TEEVEE with me?! what a FAG! cant you SCRAM back into your bedroom?! you DO HAVE a TEEVEE in your OWN bedroom. AND I DONT. SCRAM SCRAM SCRAM! remove your big fat ass that has been lying on that poor sunken sofa. you are so childish so juvenile. GROW UP! how annoying.

THIS ENTRY IS DEDICATED TO THAT FAT ASS IN THE LIVING ROOM.

(oh i feel so crude. but happy. AND contented this way. rrrrr)

2006-08-06T08:54:00.000-07:00

haha chermaine. im very sorry that i might have to quit the kampong spinster club, because some people want to get married with me as soon as im legal. haha. XD

2006-08-03T08:07:00.000-07:00

today's mep mock prelim? FAIL. ):

2006-08-02T05:03:00.000-07:00

oh my. tentatively these few days SUCKED. ): how annoying. there was like amath test today, and there's mep mock prelims tmr. problem is that i have not even finished writing all my notes. we are tested on every single freaking chapter, that includes baroque, classical, romantic, modern, chinese, indian, japanese, indonesia, latin american, africa, yada plus all those minority chapters, my TINY MEASLY brain is definitely going to suffer. oh wells. so now im like printing out all the notes online. not only my brain suffer my printer suffers as well! how unfortunate.
oh btw, amath test was a BIG FAT FLOP. ): im definitely going to fail it.
i finally bought my memorex from gnc. (: that pill works like miracle seriously. now i remember to get my mum to sign whateverstuffneededtobesignedlikethatstupidprelimregulationthatobviouslymadenosense. kays. bye. i need to ace tomorrow's test that i obviously would not. what wishful thinking.

2006-07-31T03:54:00.000-07:00

ALERT MY FRIENDS. i just saw the fugliest photo on the whole entire earth. oh my. X( what a turn-off! what a big fat poseur. ):

2006-07-31T03:50:00.000-07:00

FRIENDS FRIENDS! i dont know how to start studying for prelims that is uberly important to me which i HAVE to get BELOW fifteen so i can get my subj combination! ): ): this SUCKS.

2006-07-21T06:17:00.000-07:00

yay man im darn happy now. estatic! XD

here's a list of brain boosters for fellow stmls:
1. ginko nuts. HAHA
2. gnc brain booster. works like magic, but a pill costs 2bucks.
3. brand's chicken essence.
4. sleep.
5. multivits. HAH

okay. thats it. that was random. haha. cos i was talking to xuan about brain boosters. HAHA my fellow stml, and we're recovering.

and clare im not pessimistic. (:

2006-07-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

i finally reached home (: so today i went to vch for like the 4th time this month. haha. still gotta go there on friday, saturday, AND sunday. asdfkjhoeuirhakjvnmnhadjfh. ): 7 visits to vch in one month. hahahahahahahahHAHAHAHA.

since there was mep orch prac today, and it dragged, i was home late. and i was terribly late for lesson, so i took a taxi to tampines. the taxi fare was a whopping six bucks and thirty cents, inclusive of two bucks surcharge. i feel so broke. ): i will NEVER TAKE TAXIS AGAIN haha unless the need arises.

tomorrow got tingxie. 100% fail one. ack. i never passed a single chinese tingxie. makes me wonder why am i still in higher chinese.

OH YES. there was o level listening comprehension today and those who were not involved in the examinations were not allowed on school premises. haha. so i locked myself up in the band room. hah it was sheer bliss. (: got food, phone, mp3, everything i need. XD best.

i shall study my tingxie once again. tata. how gay do i sound?

2006-07-16T07:50:00.000-07:00

neh. i realised that the previous post was like so UNLIKE me. haha. i sound so. ahem. demure. XD

alright. on a less serious note, I LOVE YOU TKGSSB! wow man. finally we made our mark and we've come so far. continue jiayou-ing. (: great job kays. haha. YAY!

btw, dont buy food from the vch cafe. HAHA. its seriously overpriced. one and a half slice of bread with a piece of ham and cheese. cost an exclaiming three bucks! pfffft(haha.).

oh yes. latest news (not exactly though):
open category
3rd: muse art
2nd: rjc
1st: TJC!!!

haha. suddenly i feel so overwhelmed by my happy hormones. XD

2006-07-16T06:15:00.000-07:00

today's like the DA DAY. oh my. it was totally amazing, phenomenal cos it was the nbs day. (:

twelvethirtyfive, was the exact time of ________ (fill in yourself). so we played the two songs we've prepared for the competition la. a couple of slips here and there. but i guess it was fine. and we exited in an unorderly manner that the stairs were hogged, how embarrassing. haha. after us was orchid park. didnt get to hear them though.

we went in when maris stella was performing (i think. stml haha), followed by other bands. WOW. they were all so fantastic and FABULOUS! expressive, dynamic, articulated, balanced, synced. AND LOUD, something that we dont actually possess. obviously it was a tough competition.

commentation of the results was nerve-wrecking la. cos we were the first band, it was like so scary cos we didnt really know what was really going to happen. then it was like Tanjong Katong Girls' School, 85.3%, gold. the held hands, let go. our hearts sank. what that was probably going through all our minds was that, byebye gold with distinction that we really hoped we would get.

but hey. tkgssb actually came in second! with a close difference of 0.4 to winning maris stella band. (: i was so happy la. haha. i started crying! THAT WAS LIKE wa MY FIRST TEAR OF JOY EVER. really!

the nbc was definitely truly a great experience. thank God for all. without His love and strength He gave. so blessed! thank Lord! so BLESSED! of course, and my dearest batchmates! <3 love you guys. its probably our last concert together already. so fast, 4 years had actually passed! time together with you guys was totally GREAT! thanks to TKGSSB! my love! united we are, together we perform. (: haha. amazing people. (: thanks to ms sia as well! who rehearsed with us probably more than a million times. (:

kudos to all the 1st div bands, all so great! (: (: (: (: (: (: (:

2006-07-06T09:56:00.000-07:00

so ive walked that last phase of my band life. spirito is now over. its a loss whether its a good thing or a bad thing. im gonna miss band. ):

oh but still, last night was totally an amazing night. not that the concert was awesome or fantastic, but i felt truly enriched, like never before. it was amazing for me. God embraced, God listened, God took away all my fears, God loved. so we all prayed for warmth, and yes am i so truly grateful to Father Lord, that i was so warm i felt like taking my blazer off, and wipe my sweat off. (:

i need to slp, tmr got chem test. who knows i might take it on mon. haha. (:

2006-07-04T04:05:00.000-07:00

oh my friends. i just cant stop saying how excited and estatic i am. i happy, just as much as sad, or maybe scared. spirito's tmr. TOMORROW! oh my. i just cant imagine. either it was going to be awesome with caps or it would be a huge big fat flop. God bless tkgssb. (:

friends, rather, band members who happen to see this. please please pray for tkgssb. tomorrow morning, hopefully more people would join hands at 645 outside band room to pray. (:

ah so excited. hopefully intermission would be a bliss. asnira im expecting my bouquet or something big for your bestest batchmate. haha! XD <3>splat and there you go. all my tasty blood.)

im going out soon to buy flowers and junkies for all my fellow sec4 performers and special stuff for my batchies! my i sound gay. haha. yes. then i will bake cookies at midnight. haha! im just joking but i am baking tonight. (chermaine! i want to bake cookies with you! haha. GAY. ) (: toodles.

2006-06-24T07:39:00.000-07:00

my friends. i did it! i pierced my holeless ears! (: but painful. ): haha. well i gave in after tens of 'no its not painful!' yea. peer pressure. but clare pulled me there. no choice. ah. haha.

2006-06-12T09:30:00.000-07:00

oh am i glad that i recorded spirited away. IM IN LOVE WITH IT. (:

2006-06-07T09:37:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERM! (:

yesterday was definitely a late late night for me. i stayed up all the way till it was like 1+ am just for germ's present. awwww. be honoured germ.
today is the last day of our supplementary. (: oh am i happy.

I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP.

2006-06-05T03:56:00.000-07:00

dang. couldnt go for balloon hat cos i had lessons and i wasnt allowed to skip. ): ah. i just received this uber disturbing email. japanese eating dead foetus. gross and sick.

im finally like done with this new template. and im starting to not like it.

okay. i heard like tons of fun things that happened yesterday. yadayada. but my day wasnt that bad either. haha. (: church in the morning. then i went home. went for lesson. nicole fractured her foot. ouch. comes the main point. i bought like tons of stuff yesterday. haha. my green polo, 2 shorts, and flipflops from fila, a cross from perlini's, and two tees from bum. ah. (:

germ's birthday is coming. (: SURPRISE. <33

i have amaths homework that is like still not done yet. im going to do it after my lesson. and dinner but of course. so ya. toodles.

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2006-05-30T08:14:00.000-07:00

WELCOME TO THE GAY TALK. (:

above except has been deleted for privacy purpose. haha. it was nothing. we were just talking about our blur charmaine choy. not interesting. haha.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i shall play the AIR BASSOON!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
hahaha
audrey manque says:
ya right
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
beat box
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
haha
audrey manque says:
ya right
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
right!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
lalala
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i am bored!
audrey manque says:
EE.
audrey manque says:
dont freak me out
audrey manque says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
whats so freaky?
audrey manque says:
YOU.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
oh really?
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
hahaha
audrey manque says:
yes.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
no.
audrey manque says:
yes.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
no.
audrey manque says:
yes.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
no.
audrey manque says:
yes.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
haha.so childish
audrey manque says:
haha. look like christmas tree
audrey manque says:
haha
audrey manque says:
anw, char thought can wear home clothes. haha.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
yar!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
she ask me also
audrey manque says:
haha
audrey manque says:
she's so funny
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
later she nv ask then she really wear home clothes!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
hahaha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
=x
audrey manque says:
HAH. dont make me laugh
audrey manque says:
anw, i think i cannot play my clarinet tmr.
audrey manque says:
i think i really injured my jaw.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
how?
audrey manque says:
the dentist
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
wa
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
until now still pain?
audrey manque says:
yes.
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
thats terrible
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
hahahaha
audrey manque says:
i cannot close or open my mouth completely
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
maybe there's something stuck there
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
haha
audrey manque says:
charmaine doesnt know whats idk
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
you shld go and check it out
audrey manque says:
NO.
audrey manque says:
its the JAW.
audrey manque says:
my mum;s going to bring me for xray
audrey manque says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i never go xray before!
audrey manque says:
i went for it twice
audrey manque says:
my ankle and my internal organs
audrey manque says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
whats wrong with your organs man?
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
haha
audrey manque says:
the other time when i was hospitalised, they thought i had appendicitis. so they xrayed me.
audrey manque says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
sounds scary
audrey manque says:
it was damn gay
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
oo
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
its so late!
audrey manque says:
late?
audrey manque says:
huh
audrey manque says:
this is so weird im like talking to both bassoonist at the same time
audrey manque says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
hahahaha
audrey manque says:
im scared for tmr
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i just going to play play
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
so i dont really care
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
haha
audrey manque says:
haha
audrey manque says:
me too.
(GAY-EST PART)
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
oo! i found my favourite childhood english band!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
AQUA!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
hahaha
audrey manque says:
OH MY GOSH.;
audrey manque says:
im a barbie girl in a barbie world
audrey manque says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
yay!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i cant find the song!
audrey manque says:
I HAVE IT
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i only found the album cover
audrey manque says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
=(
audrey manque says:
i have that song leh
audrey manque says:
haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
REALLY!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i want!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
hahaha
audrey manque sends:
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
oh my!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i shall go re-memorise the lyrics
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
haha
audrey manque says:
oh crazy
audrey manque says:
im going to save this conv. and expose it on my blog!haha
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
never!
audrey manque says:
YES!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
nono.
audrey manque says:
but its so long
audrey manque says:
haha

Transfer of "Aqua - Barbie Girl.mp3" is complete.

` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
oo!
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
so exciting
audrey manque says:
siao
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
walau! so high man
audrey manque says:
ha
audrey manque says:
i bet you cant reach the notes
audrey manque says:
dont break your voice.(:
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
i can
audrey manque says:
WHATEVER
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
come on barbie, lets go barble. OOOOOOOOO
` si ying. magic room ( : ROAR says:
hahaha'

ended at 2312 sharp. GAY!

290506

2006-05-29T18:21:00.000-07:00

ah. i actually woke up so early today. but its gonna be a very long day ahead. ahaha. yesterday was silly. we walked around parkway like as if it was the big parkway bigwalk. not forgetting at extremely fast/slow speed. haha. so anw, i dont really recall anything happen yesterday cos my memory does not permit me to. haha. BUT. i saw chermaine waiting for 403 at the terminal yestserday. so i kindly waited for the bus with her since it goes to my house there too. hah. so anw, we boarded the bus SBS 79A (i rmb vividly). yes. so it was nearing my stop and i pressed the bell, BUT IT DID NOT STOP! grrrrrr. yes. stupid. so i had to walk all the way back from the other bus stop. annoying. yes. anw, toodles. (:

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2006-05-26T04:36:00.000-07:00

nooo. tj only admits people with talents AND good results for dsa. unfortunately i have none. oh my. my L1R5 shot up by 9 points! golly! yes. go on rant, you're underperforming, you're so stupid, cant you study harder?!, you are simply lazy. im really sad this time. i really really really really really really really REALLY want to go tj! ): there's mep that i want, there's tjband that i want to go to. nyaaa.. ): seriously ive never felt so sad for my results ever. im utterly shattered.

IM SO GOING TO GET MY SINGLE DIGIT L1R5 FOR MY PRELIMS AND GET INTO TJ. goodbye dsa.

okay. pffft.

250506

2006-05-25T05:43:00.000-07:00

TAYLOR HICKS WON!!!!

yay. something everyone's been waiting for! (: i love taylor i love taylor. (: he rocks man! haha.

anw, ive not been updating this blog. oh wells. haha. but i can say, the past three days sucked my life. my lip is suffering from excruciating pain from clarinet practice from 2 to 9pm. yea. but it was fun. haha. so many funny things happened during the camp la. so think that its quite meaningful afterall.

oh yes. cant help but say how blessed i am. (: Jesus loves me! okay. i seriously thought that i lost my mp3 on monday night, like maybe dropped in RJC PAC. well ya. obviously i was uber sad. so throughout tuesday i was sad. haha. i sound corny. but anw, i was leaving the classroom for janacek room then i felt something in my bag whacking against my butt as i was walking. so i *felt my bag, and touched something hard, same shape as my mp3, and same size! immediately i checked and i found my mp3! never was i that happy man. haha

so ya. ive got TONS of homework to do now. english and chinese. but sorry not intending to do chinese at all. haha. toodles. (:

100506

2006-05-10T06:29:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOSH. im happy, elated, excited, EVERYTHING! haha. i dont believe it. (: mep concert yay man. *squeals*

2006-05-09T06:12:00.000-07:00

yay. this like what i call the first-official-post-with-content post. (:

okay. my mid yrs are screwed. ): fell sick at the wrong time meant no studying. man, i still remember how horrible it was. i felt cold like 24/7. hmmmp.

today was the first ever time i slept in that disgusting smelly musty old sickbay. but i really needed to. wah. it felt so horrid. giddy and nauseous. so i was lying on that bed. haha. but it was kinda comfortable. better than lying on a hard grey table that stinks of lead.

so froggay and i kinda went to parkway today to shop. haha. confidential. oh we were walking out of the school, and it started raining heavily. the rain was SPLATTERING, it was really HEAVY. but we said,"is it even raining? i dont feel anything!" LOL. that was something bad to say. raindrops pelted on our head like stones. and we started raining and laughing hysterically and uncontrolling. it was simply hilarious.

okay. from now onwards, posts shall be SHORT and SWEET. tatas. (:

2006-04-30T07:44:00.000-07:00

roar.